So I’ve now reached my first big goal of 30 days. It actually seems longer, as waking up with hangovers seems like a distant not-so-nice memory. It has meant a total change in my lifestyle and routine, and at times has tested my strength to absolute limits. It has not been easy by any means, but it has totally been worth it so far.
I have been continuing to read blogs on here and on Soberistas by people who are on or thinking about joining this new journey. In my very early days, the thought of reaching 30 days seemed like something I could only dream of reaching. I was so envious of the people who had a few weeks or months under their belts. The first steps are slow, heavy and exhausting. But that is just something that we have to get through in order to reap the benefits.
In reading some of those courageous stories, I have come across some that really make me wish that I could propel them forward a day or two so that they too can see that it is worth battling through those tough times. Sadly, there isn’t a magic wand or some wonder drug that makes it an easy ride. I’ve seen smokers be guinea pigs for various quit smoking trails expecting overnight success. Of course they don’t succeed. The only easy way through any sort of change is if you truly know that you want it more than anything else. And I can’t stress enough that declaring that you are never going to drink/smoke/eat crap ever again is probably the best way to set yourself up to fail.
One of the reasons I have never gotten a tattoo is because how can I be sure that what I would be happy to have on my body right now is something I will like in 10 or 20 years time? Do I like the same things in my 40’s as I did in my 20’s? Not really…except for my family and a handful of friends that survived the years. Our tastes, priorities, and interests change. So I can’t honestly say that I will never drink again. Who knows what is ahead of me? All I can say for sure, is that I don’t drink right now and I don’t see myself drinking in the next few days or weeks. That’s as far as I’m going to predict right now.
Under no circumstances am I trying to preach to anyone on here, I’m just genuinely trying to offer support to anybody reading this that feels overwhelmed or scared of failing. It is a challenge that you are in control of and you can plan your own path and timeline as you go along. If you want it, you can do it. It is your choice, not a punishment. It is a choice.